Chapter 4: Lullaby


This poem was written and composed from listening to ‘River Flows In You’ – for optimised rhythm and ambiance, listen to a piano cover while reading. Enjoy!

Slowly with each finger I trace along your soft skin
The warmth between the tips and your cheek suddenly melt us
Our eyes slowly meet and just there, we’re caught in a moment
Swept away like the ocean by your eyes, you take me somewhere
Somewhere where everything around me feels light, and it’s just you and me

With every beat of my heart, I play every note with passion
With every key of the piano, I play every note with meaning
With every tone of the rhythm, I play every note with grace

Our troubles fade away in the ambiance of symphonies
And as the ballad grows stronger with every heart beat
We overcome our fears, our worries and our weaknesses

Gently caressing your cheek, your hand places itself over mine
Guiding it down as your grasp slightly tightens
My lips tremble as I whisper into your ear – “You’re so beautiful… –
With your eyes such as the colour of the vast ocean, with your lips shining so smooth –
And the softness of your skin, I find it hard to resist something so beautiful like you”

My heart grows stronger and my other hand places itself on your other cheek
My forehead leans against yours, and our lips brush slightly
I whisper against yours “Just feeling like this, I don’t know how to contain myself –
Nor can I stop myself wanting to say the three magic words to reassure you –
But sweet rose, how you make me feel, how I should show you when I say –
I love you?”

Just close your eyes and listen to your lullaby playing
As my hands gently tilt your head, we press our lips together
And just in that moment, I already felt as if I could fly

The rhythms intertwine with the soft melody that’s playing
Our hearts beat as one and each other, we lose our breath

If you only knew how I felt deep down inside, sweet rose
Those thorns you have still prick me, and I still bleed
But only slightly, not sharp enough to hurt so much
I’ve learnt to contain this mistake, this agitation I hold inside my heart
But once in a while, I can’t hold it in, and I have to show you
Show you how I really feel towards you, like no one in the world would
I try my best to see you smile; I do my best to make you happy
I do whatever I can for you, just to see you pass through a day smiling
Smiling, smiling that sweet charming one that I’m able to trace
Like mine, yours overpowers anyone and makes others smile
But yours, it just makes me crumble to my knees
It makes my heart fly; it injects adrenaline through my veins
Infecting me with this want, this agitation, this…
Parasite, you call love

How have I longed to show you this much
I’ve held it in for far too long, and I’ve been foolish too
I’ve made mistakes and tried to fix them
But with your hand and support, you’ve kept me going
Like my guardian angel, my life support, the only one I hope not to lose
And those special minutes I still hold, and they will never die

If only, only, only could I match up to what you could ever want
I still stand somewhere, watching you, and offer my assistance
You’ll never realize it; you’ll never pick it, because I make it so discreet sometimes
That only the slightest word would change the course
Like I said “I would do anything for you to see you smile, to see you happy –
I would do my best and give everything I could… just for you…
Because, I love you”

This moment, so intense, I can’t bear to let go, can you?
Was I wrong to think that? Because you’re slipping away
Have I done something wrong? If so, can you tell me?
Is it wrong to feel like this and show you how I do?
No don’t, don’t pull away

Now your eyes look deeply into mine, watery and tear-like
Sweet rose, you’re going to cry…
A tear drop runs down your cheek, and I wipe it away with the back of my hand
As I do, I remember what I’ve just done
So I tense, and pull back, confused, panicked, hurt, and vulnerable
Like a child, so vulnerable, tensing and jerking
Moving away from you, as if I was some kind of monster
Your eyes engage and you realize the problem
You call me back, move to comfort
I move back, I’m too scared, too weak move now
Stuck and cornered on your sofa, I persevere myself

Your hand touches mine, then holds it and your eyes look into mine, deeply
Reading me, trying to calm me, for as I’m trembling and tensing
“It’s not your fault…” I say, “But neither is it yours…” You reply
Your arms wrap around me and hold me close, calming all the panic inside me
With just you holding me, I suddenly break, my heart losing count of its beat
Yet I still feel vulnerable between the awkwardness and the longing
You finally relax the chaos inside me by just holding me
That’s all I can call for, that’s all I can manage
And I appreciate it very much, whereas you still don’t know enough
You know how I feel though, but just not how bad…

So sweet rose, I play your sweet lullaby

With every beat of my heart, I play every note with passion
With every key of the piano, I play every note with meaning
With every tone of the rhythm, I play every note with grace
With every purpose of this feeling, I play every note with love

So hush, and shut your eyes, as this lullaby comes to an end
You are more than welcome to hear it repeat as much as you like
Lie your head down on your pillows, let the bed cradle you
Rest your thoughts, and soften your heart’s pace
You won’t have to worry about a thing
I shall be wherever you need me, whenever you need me

I’ll do whatever I can to make you smile; I’ll do whatever I can to make you happy
I’ll anything just for you, because that’s how you make me feel
You have my heart; it’s in the palm of your hand
Hold it safe, hold it tight, but not too tight, you might hurt it
And if you hurt and break it, you break me

* * *

With every beat of my heart, I play every note with passion
With every key of the piano, I play every note with meaning
With every tone of the rhythm, I play every note with grace
With every touch of the key, I play every note with feeling
With every breath I take, I play every note with courage
With every rhythm I hear, I play every note with remembrance
With every purpose of this feeling, I play every note with love

With every purpose of this feeling, I play every note with love

Every purpose of this feeling
I play every note with love

Every note with love, every purpose of this feeling

Avec chaque battement de le sentiment, je joue chaque note avec amour
“With every purpose of this feeling, I play every note with love”

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